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A house, it is our home and here is our update;
So, its been an eventful week. This past weekend my dear hubby built some shelves in our closet for my fabric so it isnt all over the floor! YAY! It was even more special not only because he made them (staying up til 10-11pm doing it) but also because he used my cedar chest wood. The cedar chest had had it and I was sorry to see it go, but hubby has put the wood to good use. They will hold my fabric dear and keep em smelling good too!

Euphemia and her feedings. Well we are still using the sheild on the one side. The left side has healed up nicely and she can be on wrong and I dont notice. EEK! But on the other hand it means that things are looking up. She slept for 6 hours straight last night. Oh thank you Emma! I know I was crying while you were up for those three hours while I had a headache and just wanted some sleep but honey, go ahead and do it some more if it means I can get sleep like that. Of course if you snored a bit louder that would be great too cause then I wouldnt be worried if you were alive or not. ;)

I talk so much about the problems we are having to face but in this entry I NEED to mention how much fun Euphemia is. She has the same character and she had in the womb. She has a sweet side to her that we love to cuddle with. She sleeps like a rosebud. But as the poem says, when she's bad, she's horrid... ok, she is not THAT bad but it is a bit trying and you want to give in to her cute little screams. But no, I am not going to pay for that later. Papa loves his little daughter. If he knew the song I bet that he could go around the house humming,
"I've got sunshine on a cloudy day...
When it's cold outside, I've got the month of may...
I guess you'd say, 'what can make me feel this way...'
MY GIRL! MY GIRL!"
Yep, that's what we are, Daddy's grils! :)

This Mama is tired

Emma dear has decided she misses Papa so much that she will wail out her opinions. But even still, when Papa gets home she still fusses and complains about his absence. Still we are not taking enough notice of her so she will complain far into the night, sleep for a couple hours and fuss a few more hours. On the bright side, feedings are begining to look up! Thank you Lord. I read Psalm 117 to Euphemia today as we were being fed (me spiritually and her more physically). I was ashamed at how quickly I could go from one problem to another, complain to God and yet when He "fixes" it I show Him another area that needs fixing. That song that the Kingston Trio sings, "Where have all the flowers gone?" There is a line in there that says, "When will they ever learn? When will they ever learn?" That's kind of how my walk with God is. Life can throw some pretty curved balls your way but I am determind that though the walls fall around me I shall continue to praise Him. Why shouldn't I? The Lord has done great things for us, therefore we shall rejoice!!!!!!!

On the more mundane list of things, I finished Andra's quillow today. Her birthday was the 17th but I couldnt sit properly at the sewing table to make her birthday gift. I am sure she will like it and as soon as i can, I will take a picture to show off this adorable thing. I love Walmart! Cute fabric so cheap! MY kind of living! :D









Pictures of the finished project:



All folded up

opened up.

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Feeding is not a natural easy thing for everyone. I am going to try not to turn this into too big of a untrue rant but I just wanna scream. Nothing seems to fall into place right now. Even my poor husband is at his wits end on what to do to feed Euphemia and save my feeding equipment.
Seems like that takes up the whole day. We are so lucky to have such an understanding boss. David is going to come home periodically throughout today and we are going to have a go at feeding her.
A friend sent me this link to help me http://www.wiessinger.baka.com/bfing/howworks/latchtalk.html
Unfortunetly Emma closes her mouth too soon and we have to fight her hands. Swaddling just doesnt work as she is too strong and independent for that.

She still makes us smile. She still has her loveable moments. But when it comes to feeding, it better be here and now! Goodness girl, Mama needs a bit of a break!!!!!!!!!!

1 hospital visit

Monday sometime after lunch (2:30-3:00 for me since Euphemia has taken over the regular lunch hour ) I brewed up some raspberry tea to drink while doing the dishes so I could keep an infection from happening. At this point I am going to say that we thought I had passed all the membranes that were still left. About 1/2 a cup later I started getting really bad cramping and really heavy. I just assumed I had over did it for the day (laundry was completed, dishes almost done, all the picture taking, ect. etc.) so I would finish up dishes, take a shower and try to nap. It rapidly got worse. I took the shower but it did not relieve anything. So I laid down and after 15-20 minutes the pain still had not subsided and I was begining to moan like labor I called Mumsie to see if she thought it wise that I call the midwife and see what was going on. I hate to make a big deal or panic over nothing and I know the midwife was probably either just getting up from a nap or managing to get another one in. This was a little after 4. Mumsie said wouldnt hurt and so I did. Midwife didnt like the sound of what was going on and I guess I had a horrible sounding voice at that point and said she would be right over. I called David's boss to get a hold of David (The shop was really slow so his boss had him doing some carpentry at his own home) and told David what was going on. Horray for terrific bosses! Mumsie sent Morgann over to help me. Actually, now taht I remember, Morgann was here to give me her phone number cause I didnt have it by heart and I couldnt get to the refridgerator. Morgann was terrific and helped with Euphemia. It was so cute, every time Emma stirred Morgann would ask, "Should I pick her up?" "No, she isnt wailing...""She made a fuss, do I pick her up now?""Is she still fussing?""well..."It was too funny, but to her "delight" Euphemia did wake up about 2-3 minutes later and very hungry. There was no way I could get up to feed her. Midwife arrived and Morgann asked if a bottle of goats milk was in order. (I think she really hates to hear babies cry. LOL) Midwife asked if I could feed her and I told her that I couldnt physically get up. We hadnt done the laying down position for a while cause I cant get her to latch correctly taht way. Midwife basically plopped Euphemia and when she wailed with her mouth as wide as an alligator she shoved her face into me. Instant relief. I told Euphemia she was welcome to eat all day. Midwife then began asking question, poked and probbed a bit but was kind of stumped about what it was. She called her other midwife and they both could only guess another clot was trying to pass through. I had to use the restroom after she was finished eating and did pass the other membrane that was left. David was home at this point and it looked like a bright future was ahead of us. Midwife took my temp. and it was normal. She said if I started to get a fever and if my temp. spiked to call her and we would most likely go into the ER. I was fine at that point (but tired) so I just kind of brushed it off and thanked her. I noticed later that my ears were getting warm but I was still cold. Usually and indication for ME that I am starting to get a fever. David noticed I was a bit redder and took the temp again. I was 100.8 (I was 98 with Midwife) this was only 1-1.5 hours later. We kept retaking the temp just to be sure that we were reading this right. It was too 102 and we called Midwife and headed in. I was in the ER for about 1 hour before I was checked and about 2-3 (?) hours before they had a bed open for me. First dr. that checked me was great. He did the pelvic exam and said he need to call and OB. OB came and did the exact pelvic exam but he was a bit more uncomfortable. Oh and when he checked me for a bre*st infection he just ripped the bra up and ripped open the almost healed side. The nurse that we thought was a bit less friendly was kind of wide eye and said, "I can unhook". It was too late at that point. David unfortunetly had stepped out to check on Euphemia and didnt see anything and I was too much in pain at that point to say anything but man was I mad. I was admitted and they were going to do a ultrasound in the AM. Ultrasound showed no more "left overs" and they think what happened was when the last clot/membrane left, it opened an infection and kind of started from there. They put me on antibiotic, which they say was teh strongets thing and it took 3-4 bags of it to let me be released and now i have to do a oral antibiotic as well. (Makes me wonder how strong it is... ) First night was I was waken so often because the fever was breaking but wasnt gone and the vitals had to be checked so often. Golly I just wanted to sleep this off! Poor David I think got 2 hours of sleep that night. Euphemia was up once for a feeding. By morning we were just exhausted. They kept me another day. It was boooorring. All you could do was lay there. I hadnt eaten in almost 24 hours at that point (in case they had to do a D&C) and I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hungry. We had great nurses. One funny Korean lady. Oh she was a hoot. Asked if the baby was vaccinated and went into details on that. I told her I was but I wasnt going to vaccinate my child. She was sweet and said, "ok, you think about it. I wont tell you too." That day was very long. David brought some sewing and I had planned to sew up all my burp cloths. What else was I going to do? Well, the scissors was remembered, the thread, but I had no needle. Which was probably good since the IV made bending my arm a bit difficult. They kept me another night and by 1:00 the next day they prepped me to go home. Euphemia had a rough day taht morning. She was waking every 1 1/2- 2 hours on average to eat for a full hour. The room we were in was kind of cold. David slept with blankets and a jacket and we used body heat to keep Euphemia warm. I couldnt do it cause of a fever issue but I dont think David complained too much. I am sure there is more info. that could be of use but that is the jist of it. SOunds like everything is fine and falling back into a normal place. I am so frusterated that it happened but there really was nothing that we could do that would have changed the courses of events. There is nothing I look back on with regrets. This could have happened wether it was a home birth or a hospital birth. I take comfort in the fact that several nurses said the same thing, except for OB, who "wouldnt have advised any of this". I read Psalm 116 today. And while it is a Psalm of deliverance from death I thought it was really encouraging for me as well. Thank you Lord for protecting us. Thank you Mumsie for keeping my hubby well fed as well! :D

Update from our family

It has been a long and yet short week for us. When it seemed like we were making progress on learning the ropes for family living we took 2 steps back. For an update on our little Emma, She is fine. She is healthy. She is sleepy. She sleeps most of the day and it up for about a 2 hour period during the night. She is becoming a little piglet and has up her feeding time from 15 minutes to almost 20 on each side. Of course she throws up half of her second feeding or looses it the other way. Kind of frusterating for Mama here who has to go through a lot of pain just to get it into her. It is hard to believe she has gotten so big in just one week. Her baptism was yesterday. We now have a perfect little heathen.

I am doing ok. Some difficulties regarding a possible infection. I wasnt passing a blood clot like I needed too and there was a good chance it was getting infected. I guzzled water, tea, vitamin c, ambrotose, and Eucerine (or something like taht). We might have been able to get a hold on it. Still praying for a complete recovery though. The left side for feeding Emma has healed nicely (thanks lacinoh) but the right still is being stubborn and looks awfull. Feeding has become very hard and frusterating for both of us. This is an area that prayers would be most helpful.

Papa went back to work today. That was very tough. He has been such a comfort and support this past week that it was so difficult so say goodbye. I know he will only be gone for 8-10 hours but someone might have told me that he packed his bags and left by the way I was just bawling this morning. It's so hard to be strong on your own but I know that a loving Father will provide the comfort and stregnth that will help me make it through the day.

I read 2 Corinthians 3 today and prayed to our Father that he would give me the glory of Him to shine through me. This is my prayer, to live for Him, to love Him more daily and hourly.

We are a family. It is not just hubby and I anymore. The responsibilities have become greater. What a pleasant challenge that is before us. Every good thing comes from the Lord.